A Second Chance

I've never really talked about my mom on here before. When I started this blog my mothers health was already declining pretty rapidly and this blog became one of the things I needed as we thought we were going to lose someone who we all loved so much.

I think it was in November of 2010. She had woke up one morning and couldn’t move. She literally could not move a muscle in her body. She said she was numb but it also hurt. My father took her to the hospital and they told him she had a severe case of neuropathy. Neuropathy is usually common in diabetics and is an awful disease. Not really sure why my mom got it but she did and it was terrifying. By late December she was hurting so bad but couldn’t walk because she couldn’t feel anything. It took a toll on my mom and I prayed for her and wished I could take it away from her but nothing was helping and her health just kept declining because of it. During her sickness is when my husband and I were going thru fertility treatments. I hated that my mom couldn’t be there with me because (1) she is my best friend and best friends are always there for each other and (2) I wanted her to experience everything we were going thru (going to the doc appointments and getting to see all the u/s of her grandbabies). Her health wasn’t getting any better. In fact it was just getting worse and worse. I felt like she was giving up because all the doctors and all the medicines were failing her. I know she wasn’t in fact giving up but can you blame her if she wanted to? Who would want to live in pain and not know anything that could help?

In august of 2011 she did not know who she was. We had her in a hospital (in the ICU in fact) and I was preparing myself to do something I never dreamt of.. and that was to say goodbye to my mother, my best friend. Something I didn’t want to do and denied myself of doing. I went to the hospital a good bit to visit her (as much as I could being pregnant with twins) and every time I went, I would end up leaving more sad than the time before. It was probably quite selfish of me but the one thing I kept thinking about was how she was going to miss out on her grandbabies. Their birth, helping me afterwards, watching them grow and ect. I'm a very positive person and I always try and see the best out of bad situations. So again.. I would just go home and pray, pray and pray some more. I was not ready to lose my mom and never will I be.

A miracle came into our lives that August. A wonderful doctor who knew exactly what was going on and knew how to fix it. He was an angel and ended up helping her. Helping her so much in fact that she was walking with a walker by November. She was getting stronger and stronger everyday. I was so proud of her and I still am. She was able to go home and a physical therapist came and worked with her 2-3 times a week. I thanked God everyday that he was healing her. On December 30, 2011 she got to witness something she didn’t think she was going to and neither did i. She saw her grandbabies be born. She was also able to hold them which made her so happy. The neuropathy had affected her hands so bad that she thought she wouldn’t be able to hold them. She did and it was the best thing ever to see my mom hold my babies.

Her health wasn’t back to normal and we all knew it would take a while. I talk a lot on here about how I didn’t have any help after the twins were born and I didn’t, and I didn’t but my mom would been there by my side everyday if her health could have handled it. She came and visited a lot and we always loved to see her. She was getting stronger and stronger every time I saw her. She could never stay too long because she got tired quick but as long as she was getting better I never minded.

I am proud to say that my mother is doing so well now. She will even drive 6 hours to come and see me/help me whenever I need her. The fact that she's driving again?? AMAZING. Driving was always one of her favorite things to do and it makes me so happy to see her happy. It makes me even happier to have my mom back. My best friend. She is so strong for making it thru this.

When we found out we were pregnant (again) I got so excited because it is like a second chance for her. A chance to be at the birth and not worry if her hands will allow her to hold the baby, or if her legs will give out on her. She will be able to stand and hold this baby, rock this baby and just love it. Be its grandmother or as she calls herself “moo-moo”. She has even planned on staying with us for a few weeks after this baby is born to help out with the twins, babies and household chores. I'm so use to doing things by myself now but I'm really looking forward to having a helping hand this go round. And I couldn’t be more happier that the hand to help is my moms.

Mom,

I know you don’t read my blog a lot but I know that dad does. I love you with all of my heart and I am so proud of you. I don’t tell you enough how much you mean to me and I don’t think I ever could say it enough. You are such a strong human being and I am so glad to call you mom and my best friend. I know you will struggle with this for a while but if you keep working as hard as you, I know you'll be back to your complete self in no time. You amaze all of us each and every day. You are my rock and I love you so much. I cant wait to see you soon!

P.S~ I know you are going to be mad that I put these photos on here but look at how far you have come!