I've been second guessing myself more than usual lately. I don’t like doing because it gets me down but my mind has its own mind right now.
It has me thinking if I can really do this some days… raise three kids under 15 months. You know those days where your babies are super whiny and clingy and all they want to do is be held? Yup, those days. Where my mind wonders and starts thinking about what happens when all three are crying? What am I going to do when all three want to be held? Or when all three are sick? how do we do this?
Jp has been so miserable the past few weeks because of a double ear infection. All he has wanted is to be held or to lay down. Joc doesn’t like it when all I do is hold him so I end up having to hold her too. It is getting so hard to rock them because its very uncomfortable with this big ol’ belly! I was rocking them the other night and just started crying because I was thinking how in the world am I going to be able to soothe the other one? Its scary. Not scary but it just worries me.
I know that all of this is coming from a place inside me that’s just hormonal. A place deep down inside that is scared. A place where I am realizing just how miserable I am getting at this stage of the pregnancy. I am literally huge and its getting so hard to do anything. I know that when this precious gift from God gets here that all of those worries will go out the window and ill go back to being who and what I am, and that’s a MOM.
I know how to take care of two babies. Surely it isn't that hard to adjust to two toddlers and one baby right? RIGHT? I am prepared for the worse. Or at least I think I have prepared myself. I know the worse will be the absolute worse. When all three babies are sick, wont eat and wont sleep. When all they want is to be held. When that time comes we will handle it just like any other parent would. I will try and hold all three and turn on cartoons because I'm sure that’s what they will want to do.
I keep stressing about all of the “what if” bad times that I'm not focusing on all the good times we will experience. We are bringing a little miracle into this world and he or she will have a family that love them oh so much. A big brother and a big sister, a mommy, a daddy and a canine sister. God gave us this little miracle for a reason and I feel so unbelievably blessed that he did because we thought we would never have another baby.
So I can stress all I want but the truth is that it will all be ALRIGHT! I promise! The pregnant me doesn’t know this yet. I honestly cannot wait to meet this little nugget! Just 7 more weeks! I will see you then ,y little blessing;)
Moms of three under 2~ Any Advice?
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I had three kids two-years-old and younger and I'll be honest. When I was about 7 months pregnant, I wondered what on earth I was getting into!! It was mostly hormonal, but also, for us, the 20-25 month stage was HARD -way harder than the terrible threes that we've got going in now. But I survived. There were days I cried in my pillow and texted my husband messages like "WHEN are you coming HOME?!?" But I survived. I promise that it gets easier!!! I'm right there with you, sister!!
ReplyDeleteHi there. I have really enjoyed checking in on your blog and seeing your great ideas and photos. Sorry to hear that you are troubled right now. I have four boys but mine range from 2-10. I didn't have the close together problem but I do remember laying awake at night worrying about why on earth I thought I would want to bring a child into this crazy world. Had I made a mistake? Would I be a good mommy? You know the feeling. I think these are normal feelings for everyone on some level and that always made me feel better knowing that others were feeling the same way.
ReplyDeleteI did have a colleague that had 5 boys under 5. 4 of those were two different sets of twins. Talk about a crazy feeling being there when she found out she was having the second set of twins! Her family has really embraced what is important and they are a truly awesome family. She still works full time with crazy hours but they make it work.
I am a firm believer in not ever being handed more then you can handle. We are amazing people and we always find a way to make it. You will do great and I know the joy that you will remember will outweigh what you go through for the next few years. Kids are much more resilient then we give them credit for sometimes and they will be ok if they have to wait a minute or two to be fed, changed or cuddled. As long as they are warm, safe and fed they will be just fine.
One of the nice things about them being so close together is that will always have playmates around. You will have three great little buddies that are the best of friends...eventually!
You will do a wonderful job! Hang in there. Sending tons of positive energy and prayers your way. The best is yet to come!
I promise you that you'll be fine! Mine are definitely more spaced out than years, but with each age difference, comes a new set of challenges. I promise you that you will make it work. And really, once you have 2, one more is no big deal!!
ReplyDeleteJust found your blog through Kelly's Korner. I just have one 16 month old...so you are my new hero! Praying you find strength and energy to make it through. I know you will do great with one more!
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