I'm so proud to say that this week has been a good one. It has actually been a really good one.
I'm not going to lie.. Raising three kids under three (AH I can't say two anymore) is hard. It is a very hard job. I haven't had many jobs in my life and can't tell you that this is the hardest job but it takes a toll on you. Its demanding, its emotional, its chaotic, its miraculous, and its beyond rewarding. I love being a mom so much. I dreamt of the day I would become a mom and this is not at all how I pictured it. I knew I would love my child but until you hold that baby in your arms, you don't know what love is. Its the type of love that takes your breath away. The type of love you would die for and kill for. There's a lot of hard days that come with being a mom of three under three. Its hard giving each of them the one on one attention they need. Its hard when one needs to be held and the other two get jealous because they want to be held too. Its hard. But its also amazing. Its amazing to see them play together. To have conversations with one another and even more amazing when they kiss each other and tell them how much they love one another. Its amazing when you are walking with your little one and they reach up to grab your hand because it makes them feel secure. Its amazing when your little one kisses you and says "I WUV you so much". Its all so amazing. I am so lucky.
Mothers day is approaching us and I can't help but think how blessed I am to have this job. I have to thank my husband who is the hardest worker I know. Because of him I wouldn't be able to stay home. Because of him I wouldn't have three amazing and beautiful children. And most of all because of him I am able to keep it together. My sanity is what I am talking about. Whenever there has been a "bad" day around here Matt will take the kids on a walk or get them out of the house for a minute so I can have some peaceful time. I usually clean or start preparing dinner but that relaxes me and I love it. So because of him I am able to be the best mom that I can be.
When I say "bad" days, they aren't necessarily bad. I mean lots of whining, fighting, pushing, hitting, crying, and in my kids case fainting. But toddlers are allowed to have bad days just like we are. I just count to 10, take a deep breath and sit down on the floor to play with them. That's all they want. That is all they need. They want someone constantly there on those bad days and I am glad to be there for them. We will learn a new song or sing all of the other ones we know. Or we will just watch an episode of Bubble Guppies while having a dance party. Those bad days are hard but I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world because I know soon enough we aren't going to have those days. The days where they don't want mommy anymore and just want their friends. The days where they are too grown or cool to sit in the floor and sing or have a dance party. So I will take it. I will take all of it. Everything that comes with being a mom because I love it and I love them more than I ever though I possibly could.
Mothers are amazing. All mothers. I'm wishing you all an early Happy Mothers day!! We are all in this together! Now that you are a mom and you know how hard it is, make sure you take the time to call your mom and wish her a Happy Mothers day! You are never too old to call her mommy either... I know I'm not. I don't know what I would do without my mom! If I am half the mom to my kids as she was to us growing up, Im a pretty dang good one. I learned from the best. Happy (early) Mothers day to you mommy!! Love you so much!!
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